Listening to my previous concert performance wif ah pa. Sure is memorable to play in esplanade. My leave for ah pa is almost up, said i wana quit but it's like something is holding me back mmm anyway this coming aug de disney concert i cant perform. DISNEY sia! It's during my final exam period so i cant even go for the practices. Well well, god will have a way for me haha.

Today was a really bad day in school. Had my pmg mcq test and as usual always flunk my mcq lol. Failed by 2 marks. Currently this sem i had 4 test already and only know 2 of my results which are both mcq, both also fail but first test after re test got 80 so lecturer going to take my 80 points de result. Sure is saddening lol, fail 2 test in a row. Doing mcq is just like buying TOTO sia, ti kam here n there but everything i fail for it de lol. ARHX!!! I hope at least can maintain my results!!! Something ought to be done and i guess maybe i do know wad to do just tht whether i can control myself or nt.

Initially i struggled being in class 02, feel tht this isnt the right class for me but as time goes by, i feel tht i'm actually wrong. This ought to be the class i shud be in. I hope as a class we can spurs on towards our goal. Study hard tgt, play tgt etc. But hw to motivate them? I wish to see them having hopes for themselves nt just thinking "nah, it's too tough". Something i actually realised is tht there're many talent in the class but none worked hard enough. I can see potential in them yea one day i hope they'll realise it.

Seems like i'm more or less done with my revision for tml test liao except for marketing. SIAN. Dont tell me i gotta memorise again man! I hope there's only a need to memorise for exam not class or common test haha.
Well went to the polyclinics like 11.30pm and was told to wait till 1.30pm due to the large no. of patients. WA i nid to sTUDY la. Lol. Cos it's really too ridiculous to wait for 2 hrs so i went to a private clinic instead. Guess wad the doctor say by right i shud present hima form for him to sign but the NP just ask me to get a letter from doctor w/o giving me any form. WTF!!! And i spent 20 bucks just for one stupid written ugly letter. EAT my money. I think if NP were to reject this EXPENSIVE letter of mine, i think i rather withdraw from the OIP. At least now i got excuse to withdraw den maybe i'l be able to perform for Virtuso. I went to this clinic the other time and measure my height which is 169 TODAY measure again, 168! -.- Keep shrinking and growing lol. This means really since sec 1 i stopped growing liao lol. Pri 6 163cm sec 1 168cm until nw. LOL. But of cos the weight wise, haha, got quite a diff nw haha

Went for Vjc strings ensemble concert ytd night. My first time going to the school. Hmm the spiral stairs were quite grand haha. Anyway concert was nice but it ended at 10pm, sure is tiring after i stayed in school from 9am all the way to 6pm plus to wait for the others to go tgt. Looking at the musicians there actually motivated me to practise harder haha.
Went wif ah teck to gym and went to strings straight away. Only a few turned up today and for those who didnt turn up, didnt even inform us lol. Dono wad to say. Lol. Well well today home alone hahaha. Gotta try to chiong project. TIRED! Next week 4 tests in a row wa weightage quite high also. So many things to study SIGH! Tht's life.

Today's really blazingly hot! Went library wif teck & yi haha. We managed to complete our e learning in a few hours time and went off to cwp to talk around. I was half done wif my principles of marketing project and i seriously need to take a few pictures of the nokia store but the ppl there disagreed wif it. SAD case haha. Though i'll be able to buy my shoe and rest at ease today but still, couldn't find a good shoe at a reasonable price. Lol. It sure is hard finding nice n good shoes nowadays. Well well i guess it's time i concentrate on my studies, this few days coming online is just to ..... well took up pretty much of my time haha. Dono why but it kept me going. Just cant stop but repeating it again n again. Well, FOCUS! FOCUS! FOCUS!

Tired tired tired!!! Projects, assignments, tutorials and common test! Man i totally cant concentrate and don feel like studying. Just wana live life to the fullest but the thought of going to uni holds me back. Haha. GPA!!! Haha. Sian. Hmm must slowly climb higher n higher haha. Well well cant believe it that although i'm nt in the com for strings but yet i spent most of my time there. Lesser time for studies. Wad can i do man? Strings attached ma. Haha. Just when i feel it's so boring, a group of interesting ppl joined the cello. Maybe that's the rise of the new prodigies and super rookie haha. Hope the com can change the date for virtuso to someday which i'll be able to perform. It's just once in a year. If i cant play this year, maybe i'll slack even more haha. Anyway wonder why, since this morning there' s been a bit of a distraction, cant concentrate in studying at all. SIAN! Just when i know wad i wana do, heng called me up and told me yi haven do the project yet lol. When i got back to wad i wana do, forgotten wad i wana do just nw liao haha. STRESSED!

Saw my brother's primary school frenz today in the shutter bus. Thought he purposely sneak in just to see girls but when i asked him den i know that he actually score well in ITE and proceed to NP. It wasn't really pleasant to see him as he kept making fun of me in the bus like wtf. Although he may be saying he's joking but still wonder why i still don feel that comfortable wif it. He joked saying "I didnt know u could make it to a poly, thought u're like ur bro, cannot study.". WTF. Firstly my bro scored higher than me as well as HIM and for o level, he's able to get in but he chose ITE because of the course. To think that such a guy like him would actually dare to look down on me when his results are like.... I guess that's the part of my reasons for wanting to get into a uni in regardless whether i'm in a JC or Poly especially.

Anyway, went to queensway wif chee yi after school and tried to find a pair of shoe and slipper that suits me. Everybody was saying queensway is selling the cheapest shoes there which i always disagree wif it until today when chee yi went there den he realised shoes there are really expensive haha. Sure is a tiring day. Hope to find my shoes earlier. And for wad cy told me on the way to IKEA, it really makes me ponder, when will it be my turn hahaha. JC "" "s better, maybe.

Looking forward to today cos my frenz and i have actually planned to meet today and go back to sec sch to collect our Dnt folio. Pushed away all other activites and dressed up properly. So after class msg him but no reply. Called him up and guess wad he's doing? Playing pool! Told me to wait for him at the bus interchange first so i went off first and luckily just purchased a new volume of Dear boy comics so as to kill time. After a while guess wad happened again? Msg me to tell me today weather too hot i cannot tahan i don wan to go liao. WTF!!!! Planned everything properly and informed teacher and this guy just ps me like nobody business. I guess sometimes ppl just don appreciate those who tried their best to organize something. I guess this shall be the last time i would ever REALLY believe in wad he says. One sorry and that's it???? Seems so easy to push the blame away man.